Friday, September 5, 2014

I Support Facebook Fakeness

How many times, even in a day, do we read a Facebook comment about someone complaining about people being fake on Facebook? I know I read them quite often. I've always been one who hated people who were fake. Now I support Facebook fakeness. 

This is how I got to this realization.

Let me start with I'm a school librarian. Because of that I guess I have a standard to uphold in public. We have a code of ethics that we have to follow. I'm not a Facebook person who posts all the time. I watch my language and make sure to not include any photos that aren't appropriate. 

My humor can be sarcastic and a tad dark at times. Mostly sarcastic. There have been so many things that I have wanted to say on Facebook but have had to censor myself for the sake of the image. I didn't feel fake I just felt censored. 

Well apparently I slipped up and got called into the principal's office. 

Our principal talks really low and uses a lot of big words and a lot of words to get to what he is saying. I made out the word Facebook and then my mind starting racing thinking what could he be talking about. Then I caught the words "flipping off". It hit my gut. I felt shame and anger. I wanted to shout "really?" "It was a joke". Instead I said, "clearly I didn't do that and it was a joke". I added "I get it". I just wanted out of that room.

This is what happened.

One morning last week I had posted a picture of Jack in his car seat asleep. I wrote something to the effect of I want to flip him off because he didn't sleep at night and now that I am driving to work he is sleeping. 

Did I flip him off? Honestly, yes, but he was asleep and didn't see. It gave me a little laugh which was a good push to help me pep up a little. It was just a joke. I love my baby and mean no harm in any way to him. 

The principal told me that a parent called and said if I would do that to my child then what would I do to theirs. Really???? 

From now on I totally support Facebook fakeness. Sometimes you just have to play the game and pretend that you don't have a sense of humor. 

Sunday, August 31, 2014

Big Moves

Wow this separation has not been easy on any of us. Thankfully Jack is young enough that he seems oblivious. I have been stressed to the max. My husband has used this time to live it up like he is single and has no children. I have been working and taking care of Jack. Saturday night Jack and I stayed at my parent's house so we would have people to watch the Razorback game with. 

I've been dealing with massive headaches for weeks now so my mom agreed to keep Jack so I could sleep all I wanted to. When my phone died that night I didn't even bother charging it. All I wanted to do was sleep. 

This morning Jeremy busts into the guest room. I promptly sit up and ask "what are you doing here?". He wants to know where my phone is so I explain that it is off and he says that he has been to our house and then came here to my parent's house to see Jack. Jack is taking an early nap so he waits around until Jack wakes up and I go take a bubble bath. Jeremy had told me that he had to work all weekend but he had lied and instead he whooped it up. I wasn't mad that he went out but angry that he didn't bother to see Jack in any of that time. Once Jack woke up, Jeremy stayed a whole maybe 45 minutes. He hasn't seen him in over a week and after 45 minutes he is done. It is just frustrating for a mom.

On to bigger news. I've decided that Jack and I are going to move back in with my parents. It isn't ideal but we really need to save some money. Plus, I need the help. My sanity is at stake. 

Currently my sister, her husband, and their child live with my parents while they are building a house but it should be finished in a month. I'm going to use this next month to organize and clean our place. We both have a lot of clothes that need to go. Plus, doesn't everyone have too much junk? We just need the essentials. 

Off to start organizing!