Getting Frustrated

I am frustrated. It is day 5 of being in a hospital bed and no clue as to when I'll be released. Different doctors have different theories as to what is going on so it makes me feel like I will never make it out of here. A little back story. I had a c-section a little over a month ago and a little over a week ago in the shower I discovered a tender mass the size of a fist over my incision. The doctors are not sure if it is just cellulitis or cellulitis and an abscess. There is for sure an infection and I'm being pumped full of super strong antibiotics that make me feel sick and leave a horrible taste in my mouth.  Anywhoo...back to complaining. It is Christmas and I want to be making goodies, going shopping, wrapping gifts, going to events, and doing all things Christmas BUT I'm stuck here. The biggest complaint of all is that I'm away from my baby. I'm not going to say much about this because I'll just start sobbing again and I don't think my poor husband can bare seeing me cry anymore. My parents and my sister have been great. They are keeping Jack and loving him up. They bring him almost everyday (yesterday I decided for them not to bring him because it would be really late before they could come and it was very cold outside). They live 35 minutes away so they can't just jump on over here and my mom watches my nephew during the day and there is no way she can handle bringing both babies to the hospital. Tired of me complaining yet? Well I'm tired of complaining and it has felt good to get it out. I'll share some pictures that I've either taken or have been sent.

Bennett giving Jack baby love

Bennett looking at the Christmas lights

Husband sitting at the hospital studying (no idea I took this picture)

My daddy making Jack the angel topper (sounds fitting to this mama)