Saturday, January 12, 2013

Surgery Update



Today has been a hard day. I'm not gonna act like I have been strong. I was told I wouldn't be going home until at least Monday. I was very disappointed. A horrible black cloud settled over me once I got that news and I've been yucky ever since. 
Once I saw my stomach my black cloud got bigger. 
My mood grew worse.
My husband and I argued over pizza (I think). I've been moody and he has been moody and the levee finally broke. 
It's starting to storm here which feels fitting. 
I'm going to put a picture of my stomach below but I want to explain what you are seeing. The white part is the vacuum and the black part is the gauze. The doctor ended up having to cut out more than he had planned. 
The pain is pretty bad but not nearly as bad as hearing stories about Jack instead of being there to witness for myself. 
I know I could have them drive him 2 hours to come see me but that would be selfish of me. The flu is rapid and I am actually on the floor with several flu patients. 
I'm angry. I want to hit something, cuss, and scream. 


6 comments :

  1. Aww, I am so sorry. Hang in there. I know it sucks but you need to heal and get better. I am thinking of you and sending you hugs!

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    1. Thank you. It has been hard. Feeling very down. Missing things. I'm upset that I didn't get a normal maternity leave. I'm already looking forward to the summer. Sweet of you to stop by.

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  2. Yeah, I agree. Hang in there, hopefully this will all be over before you know it. Stay away from the sickies, too!

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    1. Thanks Emily, you are a sweetie for stopping by. I am washing my hands a lot and trying to get rest.

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  3. Oh no! So sorry about your surgery. Get well soon! Thank you again for stopping by my blog <3

    Best wishes to you! I'm following you back!
    xo Sam
    DIY Huntress

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  4. I'm so sorry your having such a rough time & that you have to be away from your little one. :( Prayers for you & your family.

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