Duh I Love Him But Still.....

I know that everyone knows that life becomes different once you have a baby.

Would I trade it?

Some days.

Would I REALLY trade it?

I would think about it but probably not.

Then I would feel guilty about even thinking about trading it and think I'm going to jinx the health of my baby because I said that some days are really hard.

I work with close to 75 woman.

Most of them have babies.

I get a lot of questions about motherhood.

Most days I lie.

"Oh it's so wonderful!"

Reality.

I am exhausted.

Most times I can not figure out what is wrong with him.

I worry that he has this, that, and the other.

I just wanna chill for ten minutes and watch a little tv.

I just wanna finish a meal without you screaming.

Seriously why can't my husband and I agree about parenting.

Then you grin at me and I melt.

But then you projectile vomit all over me, your clothes, and the couch.

Then I'm mad because I just used all my energy so you would look cute.

I miss my husband.

I love seeing him play with Jack.

I'm a walking contradiction.

Days of laying in bed eating Mexican food and watching a Redbox movie are gone.

Mornings of nursing a hangover with Taco Bell are gone.

But I got a few other great things.

First smiles.

Rolling over.

Cute baby clothes.

Family traditions.

Being a family.

But it sucks at times.

Yeah I said it.

Take my mom card.